I keep forgetting that I have this blog (not really).  It is just another reminder that I have work to do and a decision to face.  We had a minor cancer scare this week which was nothing (thankfully!) and I am now looking at a June transfer.  I am turning 46 and if I do not use the embryos this year I think it would be wrong for me to do this to potential children and my family.  I know everyone has different perspectives and what works for one person wouldn’t work for me.  So this is it.  I am going to put back all I have and hope that with my new health regime (ahem, my new as in PLANNED but unrealized) plus a little Viagra to get the lining to grow will help.  The female version just went over the counter in France.  More on that for another post.

I’m just writing to say that no, I have not done anything other than think about scheduling an appointment with Dr. Schoolcraft but that I am going to.  No surrogate, just me.  This is pretty scary as I am one heck of a stress machine but it is time for me to stop making excuses and use the embryos I worked so hard to create over four years ago.  Imagine all that time on ice.  If this works I will believe in miracles – well, I guess I do today because I can stop worrying about losing my husband.  It as all nothing.