I gave blood and now will probably have to wait for the results. I’m already feeling very bad for my nurse – she’ll have to call me with bad news. When she called me last week to tell me that the beta had doubled I joked with her that I was beginning to associate bad things with her phone calls. You know, I could be wrong about this – but consider the evidence:
Since I found out I was pregnant I’ve been peeing constantly and feeling rather nauseated. On Saturday I woke up and both of those feelings had gone away. My uterus feels a bit soft now, whereas one week ago it was a bit hard. I have a back ache – this is pretty common in pregnancy but combined with the other symptoms (or lack of) I’d say it is not a good sign for me. I just don’t feel pregnant anymore.
I have SOME evidence to the contrary – I have had a few spells of nausea and my breasts still hurt (ish).
I just have a bad feeling and I’m usually right about these things.
I’m going to jinx myself. I’m feeling sick. A mild nausea that has been lingering since yesterday afternoon.
And the dreams. Everytime I’ve been pregnant in the past I’ve had insane dreams involving…well….people having sex! I had one last night – I walked into a russian bath and there were all these people looking like they might be having sex soon – so I left (wisely) but not before admiring the tile on the bathroom wall. It was gorgeous!!!
Today is 9 days past ovulation so…I could test tomorrow but I think I will wait until Sunday just to be sure.
I just took a bite of a chocolate chip cookie and immediately felt the urge to vomit all over myself.
Right now I am 5dpo, 5 days past ovulation. If anything fertilized…and that is a BIG, HUGE IF – we would be a the blastocyst level right now. Embryo would have over 100 cells or more and be getting ready to hatch – I mean technically it is possible that something is trying to implant itself into the side of my uterus right this very second but improbable.
I hate having hope and so I dismiss it. Much easier to assume this is not going to work than convince yourself and be let down.
Anyway – I’ll go and try to eat another chocolate chip cookie and see what happens. Followed by a quick visit to IVFconnections (where I’ve been spending far too much time these days).